|A Florida teen transitioning from male to female reportedly left a heartbreaking letter coming out as a pansexual
girl before she committed suicide.
Born Eric McKay Verbeeck, the teen wanted loved ones to remember her as Hope after she took her life March 6 in Key
Biscayne, according to the Miami Herald.
Her mother, Patricia McKay Verbeeck, said Tuesday she found a “beautiful” note from her 17-year-old daughter which
explained she couldn’t cope with being born into the “wrong body.”
“I could no longer live my life as a lie,” the letter said, according to the newspaper. “I’m so sorry I lied to you. I was losing
hope in the world and could not see my way out of the wrong body so I decided it was time for my life to end.”
Over a year ago, the teen reportedly came out to her mom saying she felt trapped in her body and identified as female.
“I said, ‘Eric, what is the next step you would like to take on transitioning from a boy to a girl?’ I said, ‘I don’t want to tell
you what to do or think you should do. You tell me the journey you want to take,” the mom told the Miami Herald.
The high school senior started wearing female undergarments first and began undergoing hormone treatment for about 10
months before she died, according to her mom.
The teen reportedly planned to start using the name “Hope” upon her graduation in June.
In her suicide note, she spoke candidly about both her gender and sexual identity.
“I would like to be remembered as a transgender pansexual teenage girl named Hope,” she wrote. “Being transgender is my
gender identity. My sexual orientation, or sexual identity, is being pansexual, meaning that I do not care about what the
person is; I care about who they are. Sexual orientation is who you go to bed with and gender identity is who you go to bed
Her mom said that she’s speaking out about her daughter — whom she still refers to as Eric — since she believes that’s
what she would have wanted.
“Eric would have wanted to do this when he was a little older,” the mom told the Miami Herald. “He could have called up a
reporter to say, ‘I think we have to get the message out there about sexual identity issues. I want to tell my story.”